WanderingAmylessly 2.0

Taking a break indefinitely...

Henry and Tim were playing Wii tonight. Henry goofed up something. Henry: Oops. My bad. Me: My Bad?! Where'd you hear that? Who says that? I'm thinking he's going to say the 6th grade kids in his after-school program. Or some big kids at church. Or maybe he overheard the next door neighbor kids. Nope. Henry: Mrs. Ryan. Mrs. Ryan says My Bad. Mrs. Ryan is his kindergarten teacher.

Today is January 25, 2010. But it could've been any other winter day in the recent past. They seem to be drearily similar. That is...welcome to the downward spiral of post-Holiday, deepfreeze, lack-of-sunlight, life as someone with bipolar disorder -- heavy on the depression and much too light on the mania. I've had a couple of stressors that smacked me around -- one having to do with my dismal failure at teaching Sunday school and the other related to my failed attempt to switch psychiatrists, ironically enough. I stayed home sick today. My head hurts. My jaws throb what I'm assuming was all-night teeth clenching. Mostly I'm just pissed off that no matter how hard I try (I take my meds, I work out, I do good things for myself, I go to therapy, I try to communicate), before I know it, WHAM...here I am again. Most people would think: geez, suck it up. People in Haiti are dying. People everywhere are dying. Or suffering. Or struggling. My problems are petty. Pathetic. Uni

Bran Flax Muffins Contributed by Bob's Red Mill Natural Foods Ingredients 1 1/2 cups unbleached flour 3/4 cup Flaxseeds Meal 3/4 cup Oat Bran 1 cup Brown Sugar 2 tsp Baking Soda 1 tsp Baking Powder 1/2 tsp Salt 2 tsp Cinnamon 1 1/2 cups finely shredded Carrots 2 peeled and shredded Apples 1/2 cup Raisins (optional) 1 cup chopped Nuts 3/4 cup Milk 2 beaten Eggs 1 tsp Vanilla Directions Mix together flour, Bob's Red Mill Flaxseed Meal, oat bran, brown sugar, baking soda, baking powder, salt and cinnamon in a large bowl. Stir in carrots, apples, raisins (if desired) and nuts. Combine milk, beaten eggs and vanilla. Pour liquid ingredients into dry ingredients. Stir until ingredients are moistened. DO NOT OVER MIX. Fill muffin cups 3/4 full. Bake at 350 degrees F for 15-20 minutes. Yield: 15 medium muffins NUTRITIONAL INFORMATION: One muffin contains Calories 220, Calories from Fat 80, Fat 9g, Saturated Fat 0.5g, Cholesterol 30mg, Sodium 310mg, Carbohydrates 34g, Dietary Fiber 5g

But didn't. I blab too much. About stuff no one cares about. Those little, mundane moments of my day probably shouldn't be shared with all of Facebook. Certainly not all of the blogosphere. But guess what. I'm in a mood. So the following are 10 things I thought about posting on my FB status today, then decided not to. Lucky you. You get them all right here at once. I will pause a moment while you collect yourself, reeling from the sheer excitement. Amy Schoon: 1...just signed up for an online telecourse called "Re-Arranging Deck Chairs on the Titanic." 2...has two therapy appointments and another with her psychiatrist this week, in a span of two days. Welcome to 2010. 3...hopes Henry's current interest in blowing things up "with a bazooka!" is a phase that will pass quickly. 4...will never get warm. It's MINUS 20 wind chill out and feels like it's been this way since Christmas. 5...is thinking about signing up for an informal music group at c