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Not again

I'm so disappointed.

Every time the doctors switch my meds, I think they surely have found the magic combination that will suddenly make me feel normal. Like a normal person who laughs and jokes and wants to get up every morning and has energy and interest in making a difference in the world.

Doesn't look like it's going to happen this time either.

I'm less depressed. But that is replaced by a building anxiety. I feel anxious, nervous, jittery, unsettled. And I have this overwhelming hopeless feeling, a sort of "well, is this it? is this how I'm going to feel for the rest of my life?"

Because if it is, I'm not sure how to deal with it.

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Brianne said…
I think you need to go to a better doctor. This happens way too often for you. And it's ridiculous, because this is so common - there HAS to be something out there to alleviate the symptoms, all of the symptoms. I want you to feel happy, Amy! *hug*
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