I'm so disappointed.
Every time the doctors switch my meds, I think they surely have found the magic combination that will suddenly make me feel normal. Like a normal person who laughs and jokes and wants to get up every morning and has energy and interest in making a difference in the world.
Doesn't look like it's going to happen this time either.
I'm less depressed. But that is replaced by a building anxiety. I feel anxious, nervous, jittery, unsettled. And I have this overwhelming hopeless feeling, a sort of "well, is this it? is this how I'm going to feel for the rest of my life?"
Because if it is, I'm not sure how to deal with it.
Every time the doctors switch my meds, I think they surely have found the magic combination that will suddenly make me feel normal. Like a normal person who laughs and jokes and wants to get up every morning and has energy and interest in making a difference in the world.
Doesn't look like it's going to happen this time either.
I'm less depressed. But that is replaced by a building anxiety. I feel anxious, nervous, jittery, unsettled. And I have this overwhelming hopeless feeling, a sort of "well, is this it? is this how I'm going to feel for the rest of my life?"
Because if it is, I'm not sure how to deal with it.
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